Dave Cullen, author of Columbine 

Dylan Klebold's Journal

Unlike Eric's this was a traditional journal, where Dylan worked through private hopes and fears, long before he dreamed of murder. It covers two years: from March 30, 1997, until the last few days before his suicide on April 20, 1999. He discussed suicide in that very first entry, and cited his depression on the cover.

On this page

The opening pages, plus

This first row shows the cover, a drawing just inside, and the first entry.

Nearly all the entries fill exactly two pages, and follow the same formatting conventions, including the three-line header on the top right. Dylan was very fastidious that way, even when he sat down to contemplate suicide. (And even when he was drunk, which he copped to in some entries.) Dylan suddenly dispensed with all these conventions the last few months of his life. The entries became highly erratic, and he also stopped dating them at that point.

The black marks are redactions by Jefferson County:

                

 

The third and fourth entries:

                

 

The fifth entry; then a significant later entry, where he discusses fate, and his understanding of everything. He uses some of these drawings and notations throughout.

                

 

The hearts pages

Here's where it gets really surprising. There is a lot of anger in Dylan's journal—much of it directed at himself—and a whole lot of love. Dylan filled a quarter of his journal with these pages of hearts.

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Many of the hearts include a dotted line down the center, often with some scribbles around the outside. That's a running theme he uses, often in minature, and you can see what he means by it in some of the larger versions, like the first one in this row. It's clearly a highway, complete with roadsigns and other details, and it's leading into the mountains, with giant heart as the destination. I call these his "road to hopeville' pictures. Once you're aware of them, you'll spot miniature versions throughout, often dispensing with the details.

He does that with some other images, too: a detailed drawing early, and then icons of it throughout.

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Instructions to download the rest

Most of the writings left by Eric and Dylan are contained in a (roughly) 1,000-page batch released in July 2006. Click to download from the Rocky Mountain NewsWarning: It's 34 MB. That's big. Dylan's journal begins on p. 470.